Well, we made it through the first month in Arizona with relatively little drama. Yay! A few things that happened: Jaakson's teacher gave me a couple phone calls last month about him being "mouthy" with her and straight-up refusing to do his classwork which was followed by a parent-teacher meeting last week. Shae called home a time or two saying her "tummy hurt" but once we got home she was miraculously healed. Elena's sleeping schedule took a heinous twist including fevers and many 2 a.m. pagings ("Mommy, Mommy, Mommy, Mommy..." on repeat, until I went into her room). I was a little homesick and anxious and coped by sitting on the couch most of the day some days and as a result have a little more junk in my trunk these days. Trying to find my way around a MUCH larger, more expensive city for places to shop, refuel, etc. that would work with our modest budget was an adventure. Klint worked very long hours in the beginning and most weekends and Sundays. And it was REALLY fun when I locked our only set of keys in our trunk at the ward's crazy-busy-crowded Halloween trunk-or-treat. Three hours, a tow-truck driver, and locksmith later we got a $220 duplicate key for our car. Nevermind that since the day we moved here I kept getting the nagging feeling, "don't forget to make a copy of the car key before something bad happens." Oh, the regret.
I was at the center of all these things, trying to navigate and fix it all without turning into a maniac.
I failed miserably. I have anxiety issues, as it is. Poor me, I know. But this is the life of a mom. I accept and own that, don't worry. "Poor Klint and kids" is more accurate. But hey, some days are better than others and I'm a work in progress.
After all of these things happened and a few temper tantrums (not just from the kids), something happened inside for me. I learned something I had heard and understood in theory but had not truly applied until recently.
What I've learned this past month: sometimes you just have to laugh it off. It doesn't mean you aren't taking responsibility, it just means it's not the end of the world and that things aren't always going to go according to plan. Laugh when the kids get in trouble get in trouble for licking their classmate (well, laugh on the inside), then help them figure it out and move on. Laugh when you do something stupid, like locking your keys in the trunk. Laugh when your toddler wants you to sing "Popcorn Popping" at 3 a.m. and you're cross-eyed with fatigue. Laugh when you realize you've eaten more than half of a Costco pumpkin pie all by yourself.....and then laugh again when you step on the scale the next day. Laugh it up! I've realized that for too long I have worried about "people" thinking I don't take my responsibilities as a parent/wife/employee seriously that I have started to take myself too seriously and have obstructed myself from enjoying my life and those in it to the fullest. I reflect on Sister Marjorie Pay Hinckley's wise words, “The only way to get through life is to laugh your way through it. You either have to laugh or cry. I prefer to laugh. Crying gives me a headache.” What a wonderful perspective on life and I know I will live by those words from this day forth.
Monday, November 18, 2013
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Back at it!
Whew. That was a rough day last year apparently! (see post below) Thank you for the support, ladies! (Just realized I had comments to moderate when I logged on today).
Anywhoo, I'm back at it! Blogging seems like a fun thing to do again since I suck at journaling and don't have the patience to scrapbook. Plus, this is the first time I am not working outside of the home and I actually have the desire and a little extra time now and then to write. Don't get me wrong, staying-at-home is so much harder than cutting men's hair but it does allow me to hop on my laptop much more frequently.
I now reside in the land of....*drumroll*....Arizona! Anti-climactic? Even though it feels like I'm in the movie "Rango" at times, I am really enjoying the change in scenery. Utah is in another dimension. I don't say that with a negative connotation either. We knew this when we moved but it still has been a little bit of a culture shock for us. Not in a bad way though! I just have to throw this out there; Arizona REALLY likes it's alcohol! Wine racks in practically every aisle at the grocery store! "We're not in Kansas anymore..."
I can't say enough how grateful I am for the internet! I am grateful for Facebook, email, blogging, YouTube, and all the other social media outlets. It will take time to meet some super-cool Arizona neighborhood friends to play with from time to time so it's nice to know I can still stay connected to my friends and family in Utah and elsewhere.
My kids haven't haven't started school yet due to a 16 day fall-break. Unpacking and setting up a new home with 3 rambunctious kids running amok= utter chaos. It's ok. That's how we roll. I've accepted that. Jaakson is the most reluctant to meet new people and start at a new school but already has a few good neighborhood friends he plays with every day so I'm not TOO worried for now. Plus, he's a good-looking kid and very friendly. Now if I could figure out how to deal with his brooding nature and attitude..... Shae is a social butterfly and Elena is just happy anytime she's not stuck in her carseat! I think they'll all do great.
Klint loves his new job but is also finding just how different people are outside of Utah. He works with great people and is excited for the new friendships and associations he's building. Aside from the colorful language that flies around his new workplace, he is adjusting well and enjoying going to work everyday to do what he loves.
This has been an.....interesting transition so far. More random thoughts to come.............
Anywhoo, I'm back at it! Blogging seems like a fun thing to do again since I suck at journaling and don't have the patience to scrapbook. Plus, this is the first time I am not working outside of the home and I actually have the desire and a little extra time now and then to write. Don't get me wrong, staying-at-home is so much harder than cutting men's hair but it does allow me to hop on my laptop much more frequently.
I now reside in the land of....*drumroll*....Arizona! Anti-climactic? Even though it feels like I'm in the movie "Rango" at times, I am really enjoying the change in scenery. Utah is in another dimension. I don't say that with a negative connotation either. We knew this when we moved but it still has been a little bit of a culture shock for us. Not in a bad way though! I just have to throw this out there; Arizona REALLY likes it's alcohol! Wine racks in practically every aisle at the grocery store! "We're not in Kansas anymore..."
I can't say enough how grateful I am for the internet! I am grateful for Facebook, email, blogging, YouTube, and all the other social media outlets. It will take time to meet some super-cool Arizona neighborhood friends to play with from time to time so it's nice to know I can still stay connected to my friends and family in Utah and elsewhere.
My kids haven't haven't started school yet due to a 16 day fall-break. Unpacking and setting up a new home with 3 rambunctious kids running amok= utter chaos. It's ok. That's how we roll. I've accepted that. Jaakson is the most reluctant to meet new people and start at a new school but already has a few good neighborhood friends he plays with every day so I'm not TOO worried for now. Plus, he's a good-looking kid and very friendly. Now if I could figure out how to deal with his brooding nature and attitude..... Shae is a social butterfly and Elena is just happy anytime she's not stuck in her carseat! I think they'll all do great.
Klint loves his new job but is also finding just how different people are outside of Utah. He works with great people and is excited for the new friendships and associations he's building. Aside from the colorful language that flies around his new workplace, he is adjusting well and enjoying going to work everyday to do what he loves.
This has been an.....interesting transition so far. More random thoughts to come.............
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Random/vent-y rant coming up....you've been warned.
So, just to offset the verbal vomit I'm about to spew, here are some cute things that happened today:
Shae stepped on a bee while running thru the sprinklers with friends and she ran inside wailing like an ambulance to show me. Since she was practically doing the alligator-death-roll to get away from me, Klint and I both needed to hold her while I got the bee stinger out of her foot with tweezers. There is a cute part; it's when I put Neosporin and a band-aid on it and put her in bed to watch a movie and rest her foot. To cheer her up, I told her I was her age the first time I could remember being stung by a bee. And I sat on it. True story. (I was a smart kid). Shae thought this was hilarious, stopped crying and giggled delightfully! Especially when I did an impression of what I must've looked like. I knew this was the type of humor a 4-year old could appreciate.
Also cute, I was hanging out with Klint after I got home from work and he told me how brave Jaakson was today when he crashed his bike. I guess he biffed it pretty bad and has some good gashes on both of his knees. Six months ago this kid would've reacted the way Shae did. Apparently he just sucked it up and said, "Uh Dad, could you help me out here?" He didn't even fuss when Klint cleaned it up and put a band-aid on. I'm so proud of our lil' guy and the strong boy he's turning out to be!
Those were the highlights of my day.
Here it comes... I don't think I'm ever going to be good enough......as long as I'm employed somewhere and I have children to raise. I'm blessed to have a part-time job at a salon. I'm moreso blessed to have the opportunity to stay-at-home 90% of my week with my children. I usually only have to work 3/4 to5 hour shifts in the evenings per week. There are moms out there who hardly get to see their children at all because of their work schedules. I "only" have to work part-time, I know. My dilemma: I don't know that it's possible to have a perfect time record. How does everyone else seem to be able to juggle it ALL and not have problems being on-time? Am I missing some Supermom gene that every working mother has? Are all Supermoms also psychics?! They can tell the future and plan accordingly?
No matter what, SOME drama or disaster occurs JUST as I'm leaving for work that requires my intervention: Klint isn't going to be home on-time because his work or school has decided to keep him longer than initially planned. I have to rush to find a sitter to cover the time gap. Shae gets stung on the foot by a bee and wants her Mom. The neighborhood kids are knocking down the front door. Jaakson got into an argument with a neighborhood kid. Someone turned on the outdoor hose and it's spraying everyones cars. Elena is just waking up from her nap and crying for Mom. A neighborhood kid just called Shae a "bitch." The list TRULY never ends. And it always happens as I'm trying to get ready for work or walking out the door for work. I'm pretty sure my co-workers think I'm a pathological liar (well, maybe not the ONE other working mother). I don't say anything anymore if I'm a couple minutes late to work.
I have come to the conclusion that it is impossible for me to have a perfect record, in terms of being on-time for work. I won't bore you with details or anymore reasons/excuses but when it comes down to it; I'm multi-tasked OUT. I feel like my kids come first and my job second. Yet financially, I MUST work right now. Fortunately, I married for love. I obviously didn't marry for money. Alas, money makes the world go round.
It doesn't appear to matter that when I get to work, I am a hard worker. I'm efficient. I'm professional. I'm good at what I do. I'm reliable and loyal to my employer. Apparently, none of those things matter. My efforts never matter. One of the assistant managers told me that it doesn't matter that I'm on-time most of the time because I "only" work about 3 times a week so when I'm occasionally late it doesn't average out so well...... For me, the fact that I'm on-time MOST of the time, with all the craziness of that comes with kids every week., is quite an accomplishment in MY book. I guess I'm easily pleased? I have a small yardstick? Who knows. I'm genuinely and desperately doing my best to meet the "on-time" standards and I feel like saying, "Talk to me if/when you've had a few children, if you're still working by then." As for now ZERO tolerance, it is. My co-workers are late all the time whom aren't even married, going to school, have kids, etc. *Sidenote: I also find it extremely aggravating when managers and assistant managers are allowed to be tardy numerous times/days and they don't write each other up, while the rest of us grunts are expected to be 100%, "or else!"
Bluh. I don't necessarily need/want anyone to agree with me on this. I know, I know "it's important to be on-time and it's part of being professional," etc. I WANT to be a good employee! I'm truly trying my utmost, my very best. I'm also trying to be a good mother, a good wife, a good neighbor, a good housekeeper, a good disciple of Christ, a good daughter/sister/grandaughter, a good citizen.
I guess I just feel the need to put my words out into the universe.....via blogger. I haven't posted anything in a long time so I'm banking on the fact that nobody will actually read this. And hoping if you do read this, you won't judge me. There's something about writing it all out that is therapeutic.
I just feel like I'm running out of steam and the finish line is still so far away......*sigh*
Shae stepped on a bee while running thru the sprinklers with friends and she ran inside wailing like an ambulance to show me. Since she was practically doing the alligator-death-roll to get away from me, Klint and I both needed to hold her while I got the bee stinger out of her foot with tweezers. There is a cute part; it's when I put Neosporin and a band-aid on it and put her in bed to watch a movie and rest her foot. To cheer her up, I told her I was her age the first time I could remember being stung by a bee. And I sat on it. True story. (I was a smart kid). Shae thought this was hilarious, stopped crying and giggled delightfully! Especially when I did an impression of what I must've looked like. I knew this was the type of humor a 4-year old could appreciate.
Also cute, I was hanging out with Klint after I got home from work and he told me how brave Jaakson was today when he crashed his bike. I guess he biffed it pretty bad and has some good gashes on both of his knees. Six months ago this kid would've reacted the way Shae did. Apparently he just sucked it up and said, "Uh Dad, could you help me out here?" He didn't even fuss when Klint cleaned it up and put a band-aid on. I'm so proud of our lil' guy and the strong boy he's turning out to be!
Those were the highlights of my day.
Here it comes... I don't think I'm ever going to be good enough......as long as I'm employed somewhere and I have children to raise. I'm blessed to have a part-time job at a salon. I'm moreso blessed to have the opportunity to stay-at-home 90% of my week with my children. I usually only have to work 3/4 to5 hour shifts in the evenings per week. There are moms out there who hardly get to see their children at all because of their work schedules. I "only" have to work part-time, I know. My dilemma: I don't know that it's possible to have a perfect time record. How does everyone else seem to be able to juggle it ALL and not have problems being on-time? Am I missing some Supermom gene that every working mother has? Are all Supermoms also psychics?! They can tell the future and plan accordingly?
No matter what, SOME drama or disaster occurs JUST as I'm leaving for work that requires my intervention: Klint isn't going to be home on-time because his work or school has decided to keep him longer than initially planned. I have to rush to find a sitter to cover the time gap. Shae gets stung on the foot by a bee and wants her Mom. The neighborhood kids are knocking down the front door. Jaakson got into an argument with a neighborhood kid. Someone turned on the outdoor hose and it's spraying everyones cars. Elena is just waking up from her nap and crying for Mom. A neighborhood kid just called Shae a "bitch." The list TRULY never ends. And it always happens as I'm trying to get ready for work or walking out the door for work. I'm pretty sure my co-workers think I'm a pathological liar (well, maybe not the ONE other working mother). I don't say anything anymore if I'm a couple minutes late to work.
I have come to the conclusion that it is impossible for me to have a perfect record, in terms of being on-time for work. I won't bore you with details or anymore reasons/excuses but when it comes down to it; I'm multi-tasked OUT. I feel like my kids come first and my job second. Yet financially, I MUST work right now. Fortunately, I married for love. I obviously didn't marry for money. Alas, money makes the world go round.
It doesn't appear to matter that when I get to work, I am a hard worker. I'm efficient. I'm professional. I'm good at what I do. I'm reliable and loyal to my employer. Apparently, none of those things matter. My efforts never matter. One of the assistant managers told me that it doesn't matter that I'm on-time most of the time because I "only" work about 3 times a week so when I'm occasionally late it doesn't average out so well...... For me, the fact that I'm on-time MOST of the time, with all the craziness of that comes with kids every week., is quite an accomplishment in MY book. I guess I'm easily pleased? I have a small yardstick? Who knows. I'm genuinely and desperately doing my best to meet the "on-time" standards and I feel like saying, "Talk to me if/when you've had a few children, if you're still working by then." As for now ZERO tolerance, it is. My co-workers are late all the time whom aren't even married, going to school, have kids, etc. *Sidenote: I also find it extremely aggravating when managers and assistant managers are allowed to be tardy numerous times/days and they don't write each other up, while the rest of us grunts are expected to be 100%, "or else!"
Bluh. I don't necessarily need/want anyone to agree with me on this. I know, I know "it's important to be on-time and it's part of being professional," etc. I WANT to be a good employee! I'm truly trying my utmost, my very best. I'm also trying to be a good mother, a good wife, a good neighbor, a good housekeeper, a good disciple of Christ, a good daughter/sister/grandaughter, a good citizen.
I guess I just feel the need to put my words out into the universe.....via blogger. I haven't posted anything in a long time so I'm banking on the fact that nobody will actually read this. And hoping if you do read this, you won't judge me. There's something about writing it all out that is therapeutic.
I just feel like I'm running out of steam and the finish line is still so far away......*sigh*
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Picture fun!
Instead of writing too much, I'm just going to post my favorite pictures from my favorite moments this summer!
Friday, August 5, 2011
Introducing Baby Elena!
Born July 31st @ 12:25 pm, weighing in at 7 lbs 5 oz and 19 1/2 inches long! The kids and us just can't stop staring at her! More deets to come as this story progresses.....
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Jaakson's Kindergarten Graduation....
Jaakson's last day of school isn't until June 3rd but they already had the kindergarten graduation. Here are some of the pix and videos we took. My baby boy is getting so big!!! I'm so proud of all the hard work he has put in with his teachers this year! Jaakson knows how to read, write, spell, and do basic math! Jaakson's teacher is a very patient and dedicated teacher. We are so grateful for Mrs. Williams! 
As I watched the graduation ceremony, I was so proud of the little man Klint and I have raised. Jaakson is a special boy and we love him so much!They sang several songs but these 2 were our favorites!
As I watched the graduation ceremony, I was so proud of the little man Klint and I have raised. Jaakson is a special boy and we love him so much!They sang several songs but these 2 were our favorites!Friday, April 22, 2011
I peed a little bit when I watched this...
http://scoop.today.com/_news/2011/04/22/6512486-britney-spears-huge-in-afghanistan
Had to share!
Had to share!
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